'I Almost Do'

We all have that song, that one song that makes us stop and think about our lives and the people that were in it.

For me, it’s usually a Taylor Swift song.  Currently my song on repeat is ‘I Almost Do.’  This song is about losing love and wondering if you can ever get it back.

I listen to this song and I wonder about my ex.  I wonder if he still thinks about me, if he misses me the way I still miss him.

This got me thinking about all the things that were left unsaid.   How I never got the chance to ask him why, to tell him how I felt, how I feel now.

I was left so confused after he broke up with me.  I never saw it coming the way it did.  I thought we had something special.  I thought he was the one that we were going to be together forever.  I was very wrong.

Back in December I saw him while I was out for lunch with some friends from school.  I was shocked to see him.  It had been months since I last saw him or spoke to him.  All I felt was pain and additional heartbreak.  I didn’t say a word to him but I wish I did.

Break ups are never easy; they’re even harder to get over.  Listening to ‘I Almost Do’ made me realize that I need to face the pain that I feel.  I can no longer run from it. 

It’s important to realize that things in life end for a reason and it’s better to just let them go than to hang onto them.  Even though I know he will never come back into my life, that I probably will never run into him again like that, I need to let him go.  I need to realize that he isn’t worth

The pain,

The tears,

The fear. 

You can’t go living life being afraid to let someone in.  It just makes life more unbearable, and lonely. 

It’s time to finally take that moment to see that shutting myself out is letting him win.  Win this sad game.  The truth is he probably doesn’t care because if he did, I would hear from him.

This goes to everyone who has ever had their heart broken.  Take the time to heal, but don’t shut yourself out.  You’ll just feel lonely and miss out on opportunities to meet someone new.  Holding onto someone who doesn’t want to be there isn’t worth your time.

So Take A Moment to think about yourself and what you need and let go of him, because he’s not worth your pain.